Absence - Claire Scott

I have looked everywhere
for the silver necklace
with a Celtic cross
the one you bought me
years ago in Ireland
and put in a pale blue box
with a white satin ribbon
and asked the waiter bring it
with the wine-poached pears

I have looked under sweaters
inside shoes, in the pockets
of your coats that hang
limply in the closet
I even checked the garage
the Mason jars with rusty nails
the dried-up cans of paint
I looked through the books
you left in a jumble on your desk
The Sixth Extinction still
open to page ninety-seven

I realize now the search
was designed for failure
what I was seeking
was not a silver necklace
with a Celtic cross
what I was seeking was
the ache of absence

Claire Scott is an award winning poet who has been nominated twice for the Pushcart Prize (2013 and 2014).  She was a semi-finalist for both the 2014 Pangaea Prize and the 2014 Atlantis Award. Her first book of poetry, Waiting to be Called, was recently published by IF SF Publishing.  Claire is a psychotherapist with a private practice in Berkeley, CA.  She lives with her husband in Oakland, CA and has two children, two children by marriage and five grandchildren.  All of which keep her wonderfully busy!